DEEP GIRL/I Kill

I Kill

DEEP GIRL

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Gogo ichiji hitoribotchi no obentou Mawari no tanoshisou na koe kokoro chigiresou Tonari no ano ko wa kinou made wa tomodachi de Kyou no asa kara wa shita uchi deshita Kon no sukaato kara no sou shikato "Itai no itai no ga tonde ikanai no" Kodoku ga mune wo kirisaite Ima sugu ni demo nakidashite shimaisou Ohayou no koe toorisugi Kooritsuku shisen sasari munasawagi Line guruupu kidoku suruu Ekishou no ue ni otosu Namida no sutanpu Busu Kimoi Kiero Shine Gakkou kurun ja nee yo gomi! Taimurain afureru waruguchi no ato no Shusseki bangou wa atashi no Koshitsu toire kagi wo shime Suki na ongaku de mimi wo fusaida Utsumuki hiza wo kakaekonda sono toki Ue kara furu baketsu no mizu Daisuki datta uta ga noizu ni Tobira wo keru oto ga yamanai Warui tokoro attan nara Hontou ayamaru yo Dakara mou Onegai Yurushite Dareka atashi no koe wo kiite Tamerai kizu wo tobikoete Aozora e tobikome Kanaami wo koete Zenbu nuritsubusou Owari ni shiyou Konna inochi nado I kill tte kotoba tte kizu tsuite Aa karugarushii Sono shisen wo nido to mukenaide Saa kooritsuita kimi to no jikan Kimi to no wakare Kimi to no deai Kizamu yo Gogo sanji taiiku owari koiishitsu Youyaku kore de ie ni kaereru Sono hazu ga doko ni mo nai seifuku Tooku kara ano kotachi ga waratteru Jaaji de shusseki suru hoomuruumu Gomibako shizunde ita hikki yougu Roofaa oyogu houkago no puuru Kawaku made ie ni wa kaerenai Kazoku ni wa shinpai kaketaku wa nai no Itsumo oshigoto arigatou papa Oishii gohan arigatou mama Sore kara ippai gomen ne Attakai koe yawarakai manazashi Abitara tabun naite shimau kara Konya mo heya kara derezu ni iru Jibun de jibun wo dakishimete iru Koko ni wa nigerareru michi ga nai Dakara kattaa de atarashii chizu wo kaku Kekkyoku koko de sae mo maigo da ne Nemurezu asa ga kuru dake Ijimerareru hou ni mo mondai ga aru? Kuuki yomenai yatsu ga warui? Sore nara kuuki ni dareka furigana futte yo Soshitara baka na watashi demo yomeru ka na? Ai kiru tte kotoba tte uragitte Ima wa hitsuyou nai Sono serifu wo hakidasanaide Tada motometeta kibou no jikan Ima motometeta Teokure ni naru Sono mae ni Aa ima tobikonde Saisho no chuucho koereba yoyuu to Iitsukerareta haru uri no shoujo Iwareta toori datta ne "Suru mae ni saki ni okane choudai ne" Koto ga owaru no wo zutto matteta Atashi ga kishimu ningyou mitai ni Mou doko ni mo kaerenai Kyoufu Zetsubou Kodoku Ji endo Jishou Isho Sonzai ga toumei Kyoufu Zetsubou Kodoku Ji endo Jishou Isho Sonzai ga toumei Aa ikiru tte kotoba tte kizu tsuite Aa karugarushii Sono shisen wo nido to mukenaide Saa kooritsuita kimi to no jikan Kimi to no wakare Kimi to no deai Kizamu yo Kyoufu Zetsubou Kodoku Ji endo Jishou Isho Sonzai ga toumei Kyoufu Zetsubou Kodoku Ji endo Jishou Isho Sonzai ga toumei

1:00 PM, I'm eating my lunch all alone The happy chatter surrounding me rips me apart The girl next to me was my friend until yesterday But this morning she clucked her tongue at me Navy blue skirts that pretend I don't exist "Pain, pain, doesn't fly away" The loneliness rips my heart in two I feel like I'm about to burst into tears The calls of "good morning" pass me by The piercing ice-cold stares feel foreboding My Line messages are read, but no one responds My tears fall down like a stamp On the LCD screen Ugly Gross Disappear Die Don't come back to school, trash! My timeline's filled with trash talk And the seat number at the end is mine I lock the bathroom stall door And fill my ears with my favorite music As I hang my head and hug my knees A bucket full of water rains down on me That song I loved becomes nothing but noise And the banging on the door won't stop If I did something wrong I sincerely apologize So please I'm begging you Forgive me Someone hear my voice With hesitation, I leap over the wounds And dive into the blue sky Past the chainlink fence I'll repaint everything I'm going to put an end To this life The words "I kill" hurt Ah, don't ever turn That thoughtless gaze on me again My time with you is frozen When we broke up When we first met I'll etch it all into my heart 3:00 PM, in the changing room after gym Now I can finally go home But I can't find my uniform anywhere I hear those girls laughing in the distance I take my seat in homeroom still in my gym clothes My pencil case is buried in the trash can My loafers float in the pool I can't go home until they dry I don't want to worry my family Thank you for all your hard work, Papa Thank you for your delicious meals, Mama And I'm so, so sorry for everything Faced with their warm voices and gentle eyes I'll probably start to cry So I hole up in my room again tonight And hug myself tight There's no escape route here So I draw a new map with a cutter In the end, I'm still lost even here Just waiting sleeplessly for morning I must have done something to make them bully me? It's my fault for not being able to read between the lines? Then just spell it out Would a dummy like me be able to pick up on it then? The words "love cuts" are a betrayal Don't spit that phrase at me I don't need it right now I just wanted a time for hope I wanted it now Before it was Too late Ah, now dive in Once you get over the initial hesitation, it's easy Is what the girl who's selling herself was always told Turns out it's true "Give me the money before we do it" I just waited for it to be over Like some sort of creaking doll There's nowhere I can go home to anymore Fear Despair Loneliness The end Self harm Suicide note I am invisible Fear Despair Loneliness The end Self harm Suicide note I am invisible The words "Ah, I'll live" hurt Ah, don't ever turn That thoughtless gaze on me again My time with you is frozen When we broke up When we first met I'll etch it all into my heart Fear Despair Loneliness The end Self harm Suicide note I am invisible Fear Despair Loneliness The end Self harm Suicide note I am invisible